If you had trouble sleeping, join the club. If late light creative breakthroughs or eruptions were part of your life (or the last day or so), join the club! A potent last quarter moon that featured a near exact grand fire trine last night. Creative juices flowing…impulse level high…agitation, irritation, and excitement full swing!
Today as the Moon makes its last quarter aspect, a closing set of decans, both in mutable signs, tells the story. When we want something badly enough, what will we sacrifice to get there? What happens when the task is almost complete but the last push before completion is finally the hardest? What happens when we impulsively drain the bank account just after restoring it or just after reaching our savings goal? Even if we’ve used our hard earned resources to get something we’ve wanted for a long time, if we’ve rushed or lunged even a little for what we want next, then there is a chance that the purchase we’ve just made will require another hard line of karmic work before we can truly relax and enjoy what we’ve just acquired.
The other story we’re seeing is the story of ideals and beliefs, and whether or not, in the end, they lead us to where we thought they would. What have we learned from past lifetimes that is coming to a head right now? In some ways we are repeating an old story, but in other ways the accumulated wisdom of our soul is allowing us to do things the RIGHT way this time around. The hard part is that when we see an old pattern surfacing, we get freaked out. As if it’s a total black or white issue. The key here is to pause and take stock. Your fear is healthy, and this is not disaster coming just because it’s familiar or just because it’s been negative in the past. Your fear is also your wisdom and its telling you that you can handle things differently this time around, with mindfulness, courage, trust in others, and loyalty to the oaths and callings you’ve come here to fulfill.
We are so eager to rewrite the past right now, and this isn’t just reckless…it’s also the hand of the daemon guiding our fate. When it’s time it’s time, and all we can do is recognize that our part in this is complicated. We’re not fully to blame and we’re not merely victims of greater forces. Walking the fine line of balance (Libra north node), as we try to do things differently this time around, is what’s called for.
Isn’t it funny how when destiny actually shows up we’re terrified that we’ve made a huge mistake, or that our destiny is actually our fault? This is because destiny is always bound up in the past or a mythic back story, and therefore destiny is risky. Destiny involves our faults and flaws, and destiny involves the feeling that while there is an incredible opportunity in front of us, there is no real guarantee we will get it right.
Well…here’s to all of us utilizing what we’ve learned, what deep knowledge lives inside of us, strapping on our boots and backpack, and taking to the trail of whatever is opening in front of us!
Prayer: may the wisdom of this cycle help us to finish this phase strong, so that we might enter into something familiar with brand new insights
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