Here's what to watch for:
First, Jupiter and Pluto...
* Pardoning, being pardoned
* Forgiveness, acceptance, tolerance
* The compromise between rules, discipline, doctrines, or tradition, and tolerance, grace, fairness, and equanimity
* Pardoning as an escape, forgiving as allowing something that shouldn't be allowed, forgiveness as avoidance
* Exposing dogma, intolerance, or severe thinking
* The karma of harsh thinking
* Getting what we deserve or can we ever deserve anything we get?
* Carefully weighing options, looking below superficial appearances
* Taking the plank out of our own eye before picking the splinter out of someone else's
* The failure to live up to our own standards, the transformation of our ideals or beliefs into living examples, the difficulty of it
* The exposure of a system or organization's unfairness
* The wisdom or insight of defeat
* Punishments that truly fit crimes vs those that do not
* The twisting or manipulating of rules, customs, or traditions under the banner of a seemingly good cause
* The corruption of rules, customs, or traditions, and the need to adjust our understanding in order to get back to the essential goodness or core of something
Next, Mercury and Neptune...
* The exaggeration of the mundane...normal, everyday things seem unbelievably boring, dead, dry, cold, lacking imagination, mystery, depth, or spirit
* The exaggeration of the spiritual...every last thing is suddenly a message, a sign, a spirit, a synchronicity, a riddle, a code, a dream, a vision, transcendent, romantic, or deeply imaginative
* The mundane is suddenly alive with something numinous
* The fantasy comes back down to earth a little
* We delude ourselves into believing something, an excuse, that leads us astray, may come from a voice that is suddenly trying to convince us of something very specific
* We become what we believe
* Our voice, our mind, our thoughts, are preoccupied with something divine, or possibly tired or disillusioned with something spiritual
* When we grow tired of something sacred or spiritual, it's tempting to feel as though we've been deluding ourselves to believe something that isn't real or something that isn't really "there, there," but these periods of time, of great doubt, or great tiredness with the spiritual path, are normal. They hold us accountable to the reality of what it means to walk a spiritual path through all seasons of life, and they also provide us with an opportunity to deepen our faith by continuing to walk the path even when the mind of our faith has no "reason" to do so, or cannot conjure images or ideas of why the path is better than some other path. We can learn to see these periods of great doubt or spiritual tiredness as moments where our faith is becoming something quieter, something solid, simple, foundational, and unmoving. If we only practiced our path when we believed, when we were ecstatic or excited, when we were healthy and full of energy, then we would be mistaking divinity for belief, divinity for energy, divinity for excitement or enthusiasm or personal efforts alone. Divinity goes beyond all of these things, and so we too must be brought beyond our "reasons" to believe or our "enthusiasm" for what we believe. We must discover again and again, that God is in everything, waiting for us to learn how to see clearly...present even in our tiredness, disillusionment, doubt, self-deception, and exaggeration.
* We often grow disillusioned with something when we recognize that our efforts and energy can no longer sustain it. However, in just such moments there is often an opportunity to discard the notion that it has ever been US sustaining or making something happen in the first place. This simple insight, which is actually more of an offering, is the beginning of forgiveness and grace, and it is a critical part of how our spiritual "efforts" become submissive to the divine, rather than continually dressing our efforts up in the costume of spirituality until they become exhausted and cast off again.
Prayer: Teach us to find your perfect will for our lives in precisely those moments and times when we feel too tired, disillusioned, or doubtful to continue on our own steam.